Anxiety about evrything..

Okay im new here so heres goes nothing…
I’ll try to make it as short as possible
So first thing i have anxiety issues they started probably around 4 or 5 years ago.
I had really bad panic attacks for no reason (racing heart, deep breathing, dizzines)
I went to the doctor to find out that it was “normal for people my age” pshh, i was skeptical but thats what i wanted to hear, to know i was okay. I use to belive i had some mental problem with me because i was so negative about everything. Now this may seem crazy but at one point in my life i was scared to go outside because i thought i would fall or pass out and .. well die. I dont feelthat way anymore thank goodness. I was also scared i would get hurt, harmed or killed, or kidnapped if i went outside (now to let you know im only fouteen so 4 and 5 years ago i was pretty young) This is probably due to the tv shows i would cme across when flipping through channels. Networks on my television were never blocked. I was open to EVERYTHING. I would watch scary films and other things like sex, drugs, violence, ect. of course then i had no idea what it was but it all seemed so scary. I came across the news and it filled my mind with horror. Kids are supposed to be protected from the realities of the world. but not me, i had my mind poisoned with things that werent even meant for me to see.
I never told anyone this because they would think i was crazy. This is off topic but it needs to come of my chest: Everyone thinks im perfect and sweet and innocent but the truth is im NOT PERFECT out of couriosity i found out about porn and became addicted for a short amount of time… I have major trust issues because like from tv i use to watch people are evil and will backstab you… im scared my parents will break up because they fight more than usual… im scared i will not be able to make it to my goal as a pharmacist and live my life happy no matter what.. im scared i will be raped im scared of it all… even when mysterious poeple i dont kno glance at me for moe than 10 seconds…

I just need someone to tell me its okay.. talk to me
PLEASE DONT MAKE A HUGE DEAL
thats why i cant tell an actual person face to face..
because im scared they will lie to me

Ive gotten alot better since those few years but im still scared about
high school and stuff.. what if im pressured into thing (which im too much of a wimp to try any drugs and alchol anyway) but who knows..

PLEASE WRITE BACK even a 2 sentance reply is good enough
at least someone took some time to care
thank you. peace.

Hi PaintingSushi. I love your screen name…probably because I love sushi and painting, haven’t tried both at the same time though. :)

It does sound like you have anxiety and that you’ve had it for a while. Yes, it is normal to have some anxiety from time to time, but…if you’re having panic attacks, that is something we should do something about.

If you feel comfortable, can you tell me a bit more about your anxiety and panic attacks, as well as anything you’ve tried to make them better? Then we’ll take it from there.

Warmly,
Kathy