Where to start fixing

Its a long story but i will try to keep it as short as possible. My whole life my mother has bad mouthed me and down talked me and my father. She has thrown me out over and over. She even took my kids away from me. In March of this year my ex husband, children, and mother brought me back from Indiana. This past fathers day they told me that they have been sleeping together when he and i are supposed to be back together. the worst part is that this is all happening while im in the other room sleeping. now he goes to work with my mother every night because he says hes trying to take over the company. It hasnt even been a month since ive heard all of this. I am still trying to adjust and they scream and yell and get mad when i have something to say because i cant hold it in any longer. what should i do? how do i fix me? ive been trying to stay numb but that doesnt work when you dont have the money or resources to do it.

Hi Ashes2Ashes. Thank you for sharing your story. It sounds like you do have a long story here with some deep hurt.

To clarify, your ex-husband and mother are sleeping together? Are they in a relationship?

This must be very difficult for you.

If you could say anything to your mother without fear, what feelings would you share with her?

What feelings do you most want to numb?

Looking forward to hearing back.

Warmly,

Nova