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31810759
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Not sure if im doing this right.. correct me if im wrong. So almost exactly a year ago, i somehow fell into depression and didnt even realize it, if that makes any sense. All i did was lay in bed for about 5 months. I would go to school (im young), come home, turn off all the lights and listen to music while staring at the ceiling and crying. Anything could and would hurt me. One odd look from someone would kill me. I was so fragile. The reason i fell down mentally was because i was losing everything. I ride horses, and im not sure if anyone else on here does, but when they are your life, you get emotional about them. to make an extremely long story short, i couldnt have my horse that i mentally needed, my sister and i went from best friends to enemies, everyone of my friends (they were all older then me) left or i would always be ashamed of my age around them, and my school friends drifted too. I lost just about everything that kept me sane. how did i get out of this? well, my dad finally gave in. i was so unstable i was without my horse, and she made everything heal and also gave me a belief in god. its extremely hard to explain how. but pretty much now im feeling the same way i did a year ago when this all happened. i feel disconnected and very outsider-ish. im sooo scared of falling into depression again. please help me. i dont want to rot in bed and become lethargic and stressed all over again. :( thank you in advance<3 even typing this out helps me. and sorry its so long! |
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31810759
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no one has anything to say? :/ |
kittenlullaby
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No… sorry… |
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31810759
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…oh :/ |
never_forgive_myself
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Since my girl friend broke up with me I been depressed every since |
